I didn’t realize that I had lost it. I don’t know when or how but all I know is that it’s back.
I had been going through the motions like a robot just doing what needed to be done…
Then WHAM I’m knocked out of my stupor and the love that I used to feel comes crashing back.
I think I lost it when I stopped paying attention, when I stopped caring about and noticing the little things that I used to pick up on and love.
I lost it when I let myself be bothered and annoyed by things and people I have no control of, that should be unrelated to my love – but they ended up changing my view of things, changing my focus from what it should have been.
How about you? Is there some area of your life that you’ve lost the love for?
Have you lost your love for God, your spouse, your job, or your life?
Are you stuck in a vicious cycle of just going through the motions for the sake of it?
When you lose a love that you used to have it can affect your entire life including your other loves.
How do you get that love back? How can you reignite that flame that you used to have?
For me I needed life threatening occurrences to spark that flame back to life.
For you, I hope it’s not that dramatic – although sometimes it could be.
The last few weeks at work have been intense – a crazy motorcycle accident, a patient close to death and hallucinating, a child whose airway was almost fully closed…all three of those patients probably would’ve died without my quick interventions.
These three calls were able to draw me out of my stupor of just doing the job and have brought me back to loving what I do.
We do so many calls where there isn’t anything I can do for the patient except transport them quickly to the hospital. So much of our job is in our interaction with people and everyone we come in contact with. I had forgotten that part of the job that I love. I let different partners and stuff going on with scheduling and changing of bosses affect how I viewed and did my job. I stopped going above and beyond with every patient and just did what was required of me.
Doing those three calls made me realize that this job, though I’m not always doing life saving interventions, matters. What I do and how I interact can really affect those around me.
These past months have been hard and I didn’t even realize why…when I didn’t love my job anymore it changed my outlook and robbed some of my joy.
I’m happy to say it’s back – I love my job once again.
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